Exams before Spring break 09

Next week,

Tuesday :
Organic Chemistry 2 (Chem332)
Statistics 305 (Stat 305)

Wednesday :
Chemical Reactor Engineering (Che382)
Heat and Mass Transfer (Che357)

Good luck to myself

Ignored and Forgotten

Don't you just FUCKING hate it?
It's as if you died
It's as if your existence is insignificant
It's as if you're that person walking past you in the mall
It's as if you're that person sitting beside you in the bus

You know he's there... but you just couldn't bother

Voices and Words

Recently I've noticed some change in myself....
Usually I wouldn't mind chit chatting on msn/ facebook. Seeing people reply me with words typed out.
I don't know what hit me in the head but now everytime I see these msn/facebook chitter chatter... I feel lonely. I somehow don't feel your presence. It's as if I'm talking to something dead.

I'd rather hear your voices. I want you to hear mine.
I want to see your faces. I want you to see mine.

When I say something funny, I know you acknoledge me with your smile and laughter.
When I say something bad, you'd show me frowns and fists of anger.
When you sing, I can hear the melody/rhythm.
When I scream like a girl, you'd make fun of my scream...

Emoticons? I don't use them (msn ones). I think they're a nuisance and downright irritating because some people abuse them for almost every character in the alphabet making conversations a chore to read.


So, 'TALK' to me more.

An empty glass

So I was thinking of what I can base my current situation with.

Think of me as a glass, filled with some dirty water.
Horrible. Disgusting. Unappetizing.

Now some people tell me to let go of my past. Okay.
So if I pour away the dirty water, I'm left with nothing.
An empty glass.... waiting for the waiter/waitress to fill me up with joy and happiness.

....okay, just waiting for the waitress

Insomnia

So I have been having insomnia for the past few weeks. Well my insomnia is common, but usually it lasts like a day or two. Things are getting out of hand.

Normally when I try to sleep, I'd lay on my bed, and it'll take me an hour to fall asleep (my brain can't stop thinking. I can't shut it off somehow)... well this is when it's NORMAL

Now when I have insomnia, it takes me.... well I can't sleep til like it's 1 hour before I need to wake up.
Another symptom is that i tend to wake up from my sleep numerous times in the night and it takes me a while just to get back to bed.

Reasons? I'm thinking it's more of the psychological sickness for my case since I have these insomnia events ever since I was in grade school (Primary 1 and on wards).
Stress, Depression, Anxiety, Worry... you name it. I'm usually thinking of all those at once.

So right now, I want a FULL GOOD NIGHT SLEEP. Popped in half a sleeping pil last night and fell asleep in a mere 15 mins.

Today, I just had one about 5 mins ago. The effects should be settling in anytime soon.
See you guys in the mornin

And I'll never walk alone

When you walk through a storm hold your head up high And don't be afraid of the dark. At the end of a storm is a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone, You'll never, ever walk alone.

Happy Day at the end of February

The whole of February has been an emotional month for me.

Now that it's ended, I finally found out what's making me emo...
I felt outcasted. Hardly anyone to talk to. Hardly hanging out with friends.

Today, I talked to some of them and went for dinner with Long Kor + Michelle + LanYeng + Sky and qi guai.
So it was a chinese dinner which I wasn't really willing to eat at first.... (New China Boone)
Then as I was eating, I noticed my stomach isn't really getting as full as it would for the past few weeks...

My appetite has returned! I gobbled as much as I could and still managed to eat a Dairy Queen Blizzard XD (Thx Michelle)

Back home, we played some guitar hero and Ruey, Andrew, Yi Herng and Uncle Tam came to join the fun. It's the first time my room's that packed with people so I was really happy XD

Let's hope this goes on for the rest of the year.