You tell me

You tell me, stay positive, but everyone around me is making me feel negative.

You tell me, work hard, but almost all the time I don't get results I want.

You tell me, it's okay as long as you work hard, but even hard work won't get me where I want.

You tell me, don't worry everything's gonna be okay, how often is this true?

You tell me, there are people worst off than you yet they never complain.

I have no comeback to that.

What happens when things don't go according to plan?

What happens?

What would you do?

Regret

Think of other options

Choose the best option

Get on with life

Strive to achieve more in life

Or the emo approach,

Regret

Think of only one option

Choose the worst option

Ignore life and future altogether

Which category do you fall under?

Ahh peers

When results are unfavorable, there is no one to blame but myself.

I could've done this and done that. I had done this and done that yet I couldn't obtain it.

They say that hard work pays off. What if it doesn't? What left is there for me to believe?

I'm not getting any younger any day, I can only get better... so it seems. It's getting worst.

They say everyone has a purpose in life. What's mine? As someone else's topic of insults?

You know what pisses me off the most right now? "Friends" who make fun of me. Yea I get it, sometimes we make fun of each other but to INFLUENCE OTHERS?!

A friend of yours might come up to me and started spewing the same shit you usually say. Think of it in my position when some fella I hardly knew says such shit at my face.

I'm thinking "I'm not close to you, I HARDLY know you, who the fuck do you think you are to insult me in my face and expect me to let you get away with it like nothing's happened?!"

Stressful

Too many things going on in your head can affect your performance.

Too many worries going on in your head can affect your performance.

Too many problems to worry about can affect your performance.

That said, I'm stressed, having multiple worries, thinking too much about problems and I'm currently studying for 2 exams in less than 12 hours.

RIP Geocities

Back then around 1998,

you gave me plugins/add ons for Petz

you gave me insight on how to hack my digimon

gave me Dragonball/ anime fansites

from your service I made my first website (which I have forgotten how it looks like but it's somewhat similar to every other geocities website back then)

you thought me how to work with HTML and javascript.

11 years later, you've closed down. Thanks for the memories.

"Bye GeoCities! I remember staying up till late nights (and getting scolded of course) just to learn HTML and Javascript so I can create my own webpage and look cool when I share them on IRC and ICQ, putting in “Guestbooks” so readers could write down their feedbacks…those were the good old days. The time for Yahoo to close GeoCities is up, everything that were once there will vanish like dust, well almost; some of the pages might be preserved. It’s an obsolete tool and you probably don’t care about your page anymore, but it’s always worth the effort to save a copy of it before GeoCities takes it down forever…"

"Today's the day: Yahoo has officially killed the once-ubiquitous free hosting service, taking down thousands of the ugliest and least-updated pages on the web. It's really the end of an era. A moment of silence, please."

Read more : Gizmodo
Lowyat.net

7 retro things we'll miss about Geocities

Contradiction

"My religion promotes peace, my religion is against violence and war"

"We are a peaceful country."

"I promise this/that"

"I'm open-minded"

To those that said that or something similar... don't you see the contradiction? Or are you guys too ignorant to realize it?

Public Enemies?

As a minority, you walk amongst the majorities who are mostly racist. How do you feel?

As a majority who walk amongst the minorities, who condemns your racist ways in turn be racist towards you, how would you feel?

As an individual walking amongst other individuals who doesn't care of your background and treats you equally, how would you feel? I'd say definitely much better.

Sickness, Daughtry and Organic Chemistry Exam

Thursday night,

feeling sick (with sore throat) . Could be H1N1 but I seem to be recovering after drinking the miracle drink (beer) during Daughtry's concert.

Though... kinda lost my voice abit and my sense of hearing (just like the Nickelback concert where my ears have gone slightly deaf and a constant high pitch noise can be heard).

That said, it's 6.30am and there's 4 and a half hours left to study for the 3rd organic chemistry exam.

Influences? Power?

1 in 1000 people looks to the right, the other 99 people won’t care.
10 in 1000 people grouped together looks to their right, the other 990 might follow and you’ll get the domino effect.
But all it takes is to kill 1 out of 1000 to show that you have power over the other 999.

It all depends on the situation.

Burning the Midnight Oil all the way til the next day

10.30~12am :Study for Ochem Quiz Chap 20 and 21

12~12.30am : Break

12.30 til 2am : Try to finish up che358 homework

2am til 10am: Study for Che421

11am : Ochem quiz 4

12pm sharp : Che421 Exam 1

1pm : Hand in and attend che358

2pm : Eat lunch

3pm : Nap

6pm : Basketball

Ahhh gotta love college

Life and time you can't get back.

My grand-aunt passed away on 09/09/09...

I lived with her in Taiping when I was 2 to 4 years old or so. She loved me and cared for me.

She was rather active in her early years but as time passes on, she aged and started having Alzheimer's. She's getting rather forgetful last I saw her. Her frail old body trying to keep up with her daily life. It's kinda sad how I couldn't do much. Not even able to pay my final respects at her funeral.

I'm missing a lot back in Malaysia. But I have to choose to forgo things. Choices I'm not so sure if it outweighs the other. I'll leave that for another blog post in the future. For now, RIP.

Memorial for the Manga Artists of My Childhood

RIP

My Corruption

Just a little something I found reading forums...

Asian countries with the HIGHEST CORRUPTION PERCEPTION INDEX (CPI) SCORE year 2009!
1) Indonesia .. corruption score : 8.32
2) Thailand .. corruption score : 7.63
3) Cambodia .. corruption score : 7.25
4) India .. corruption score : 7.21
5) Vietnam .. corruption score : 7.11
6) Phillipine .. corruption score : 7.00
7) MALAYSIA .. corruption score : 6.70

while corruption score for Singapore is almost 0!!.. this is one big reason why Malaysia so hard to a be developed country

source..
http://www.transparency.org <-- official TRANSPARENCY INTERNATIONAL website
http://www.weforum.org <-- OFFICIAL WORLD ECONOMIC FORUM website
http://specials.rediff.com/money/2009/apr/...rupt-nation.htm

SN1,SN2, E1, E2???

I never liked remembering stuff. This is why I'm forgetful.
I'd rather understand how stuff works. But I still need to refer back to the books.
So what happens when you get both of these in one subject? Organic Chemistry.

I'm too used to my other Che exams where it's all open book and open notes. Gone are the high school days where I have to remember word by word of everything in the textbook for about 5 classes. I.am.a.wizard.you.shall.not.pass. My brain's totally messed up.