Uncontrollable Mind

I think too much. That's something I knew since I was like probably 6 years old. I'm constantly thinking. Thinking of what if this should've happened and what if it didn't happen. I guess that explains why I'm not that much of a risk taker when it comes to life. I'll avoid the high risk option and take the option with less risks. Or sometimes I just don't really care... Could be why I suck at gambling...

Finally they increased cars to the Kelana Jaya LRT (PUTRAline)

The Kelana Jaya line (or PUTRA LRT as I'm used to calling it) has finally increased from a two car to a four car train. As a frequent user of this public transport when I'm in Malaysia, all I can say is.... "After 12 years, FINALLY"

Source : TheStar

Song of the month : Blast from the past (December 2009)

I'm gonna start something new in my blog. Every month I'll post a song at least 10 years or older.

Let's start with this since this is the first memorable song I heard today.

If tomorrow never comes~

What happens when you live each passing day thinking if tomorrow never comes?

You stop thinking of the day after tomorrow and beyond that. Live each day like it's your last.

Asian Hairstyles

Typical common hairstyle trends of the asians~

Notable traits :

-Dyed hair (most of them).

-most of them will be chinese/japanese and somehow their face will be pale due to lack of sunlight. (Prevent hair from drying/prevent head from sweating)

-constantly buying hairsprays/hair cements/hair gels where with each use on their hair is equivalent to a full course meal for a child.

-male workers at a hair salon tend to have these hairstyle.

-tend to wear accessories such as rings,bracelets, necklaces and on some occasions earrings.

-tend to wear 'loud' graphic tees

-often mistaken for a vampire from the Twilight books due to their similarities

Life is weird

All of a sudden... since a few blog posts ago....
I started to view the world very differently... It's like I was reborn.
Everything is very strange and unfamiliar... yet it's very familiar... I felt like I just came out of amnesia and I can't remember anything. Yet like some amnesiac's, they remember how to speak, they know how to walk, they know how to drink out of a bottle.

Then again, this could be an after effect of watching Avatar.

1400 pageviews

As of today, right now, this moment, there's about 1,400 page views to my blog. 400+ are from the US alone.

Question is, who's reading?

Counter can be found on the right navigation bar (unless I changed the layout of my blog) and has been there since about September 29

I don't understand earrings

Somehow, it makes a girl more feminine and more attractive....
depending on the number and size of the earrings. 1 pair of small earrings enhances their beauty. 2 is still okay. 3 or more indicates you're trying to turn your ears into an antennae.
I don't understand how by having just one pair of earrings can make a female more attractive. Those small metals/plastics/materials are sending impulses to my head or something....

As for guys... it achieves the opposite effect....
3 or more pairs shows that you enjoy piercing. 2 is inbetween. 1 pair or just one makes me think you're gay. Sorry to say that to those (with 1 pair/1 piercing on one ear) whom I know but I'm sure you've heard me say that the first time you got that piercing of yours.

Snow more

Last year around the finals week, there was a snow storm.
This year 1 week before the finals week, we had a blizzard here in Ames which led to the closure of ISU for one day.

Today, Christmas, we had a snow storm. Everything is white. Yea, it's a white christmas~

Merry Christmas/ Happy Holidays

Semester roundup

I've passed organic chemistry 2!!! Finally done with that class.
Other 2 classes 358(separations) and 421(Process Control) I thought I had done better... but results are still good. As for 406 (Environmental Chemodynamics), I thought results for that class would be horrible. It's a good thing the last exam went well. Along with the fact that my projects for that class scored an A+ :D

I'm ready for next semester!

AVATARRRRRR

Let me just say.
Avatar may have a very cliché story but that's not it's main attraction. It's the experience of a world created by James Cameron.

Watch the movie. Enjoy the experience. Try to watch it in 3D.

To some that might get sick watching things in 3D, the movie was directed with that in mind so you won't have to refocus your eyes too much. The action scenes are unlike other action movies where you are shown a 1 second clip of one camera angle after another.

WATCH IT!!!

Life is like a dream (Very deep thoughts. Read at your own risk)

Yeah I'm putting this note here to avoid whoever's reading my blog to reaching a state of mind which could hinder you from looking at the world the same. So read on at your own risk and don't tell me I didn't warn you.




Another decade gone and 2010 is upon us...

I'm gonna be 24 years old at the end of 2010. It got me thinking. I've been alive for 24 years.
Then it hit me... I have became self aware and conscious of my existence. I realize that I'm probably living a dream. Nothing is predictable. It is at this moment where I try to forget about this and continue to live this life of mine. BUT I can't.

This isn't the first time it has happened to me. The first time I became conscious of my existence was when I was in Primary 6, 12 years old. Yea I freaked out. Started moving my hands and wondering what is my purpose. Why am I brought into this world? After a while. But I was only twelve. I hardly got a grasp of this world just yet. I kinda forgotten about it... until I was 15 years old in form 3. Then I would have occasional self consciousness awareness once in a while but that will never last more than a day.

So this time around wasn't as bad as it seems. As a person who believes that there is no afterlife and that everything just ends, I was emotionless for a period of time. I couldn't do anything. I couldn't even have fun or do the things I thought would be fun. I think it was around this time I accepted this life of mine and decided to live life to the fullest as I could. I had lived normally without much worry.

Now, at the end of the semester...I don't know why I did it but I decided to get myself to notice my significant life again. It happened the day after my final exam (Thursday Dec 17th 2009). Really don't understand why I did it but when it happened. I felt empty. Kept thinking I'm nothing but something stuck in this human body. I felt like I don't know anything around me yet everything seems so familiar.

When I'm in this state, it feels horrible. I am unable to live my life normally. I begin to feel like there's not enough time for anything. Phrases like "I've got time to kill", "I've free time" makes me wonder why the hell do I have free time? I should be doing something. Well, that's one good thing that comes out of this. It makes me think much more deeply on how I'm going to spend the rest of my remaining life.

During this state of mind, I tend look around me and feel nothing. Look around while in the car and I still feel emotionless and insignificant. Like as if nothing else matters anymore. Everything feels like a dream. Sometimes I wonder... how am I moving my fingers? How the heck am I walking? This feeling of... cold, hot, warmth. When I expire there won't be anything left of me. No consciousness. When I grow older, I'll be more forgetful. My friends, my experiences, my family.

So let me just say this.

I am thankful for everyone. I am thankful to all my friends I have befriended whether or not I still know you til this day. Most of all, I'm really thankful to my family especially my mom who has worked so hard to bring me to the states. One of my goals is to make sure my mom retires soon and not to worry about me too much anymore. Just wanna let all of you know, even though I don't show it, I love everyone of you and thankful I've met you. You've indirectly made me who I am.
I'm thankful for having a well and healthy body, having all of these worldly possessions, being able to eat well and being alive.


Also, I hope I can get out of this state of mind soon... I'm starting to get extremely paranoid of everything I do and wanted to do which in turn prevents me from enjoying this winter break to the fullest.


And since we're on this topic, I think I should include some religious info as well...
Many of you know that I'm a free thinker... I'm somewhat an atheist. Yea I used to believe that there is a higher power which many would call a "God" but then questions arose.

If God created us, then who created God? My answer is, humans created God out of fear. Humans fear the unknown and thus created God to put them at ease.
Yea, I used to pray to God when I was a kid. Then I realized, God didn't really answer most of my prayers. And then it hit me... hard. Hence, I began realizing this so called "truth" and thus the Primary 6 incident happened when I became self aware of myself.

There are lots of questions which I could ask to challenge what ever religion you believe in... but I do not wish to take away your hope in life. Your religion has thought you how to live your life. Thought you moral values and other stuff which I may or may not know of. It's good that you believe in giving in to whichever God you believe in.

Sometimes I really wish I could believe wholeheartedly that God really exists. It'll make me feel much more at ease but I feel that it'll make me weak. I'll be relying on something which isn't proven. Also, since I have a scientist way of thinking, it's going to be really hard for me to believe in something that isn't proven.

I'm tired and hungry right now. Time to stop right here and hope I can share more of my thoughts in the near future.


PS : I haven't really gone into too much detailed yet regarding my self awareness...



Edit : 26th December 2009
I can't seem to get back to this state of mind... everything is back to normal. Which is kinda scary... you seem to forget that your life is temporary...
I still think about it, and sometimes I try to get myself back into that state of mind.... but I keep stopping myself because I don't want to live my life in fear of the inevitable. Merry Christmas

Edit2 : 29th December 2009

Just remembered why I thought about this. All due to a recurring dream (not the first time I had this dream) of me being in a monorail high up about 10~30m high and it got derailed. Panic can be seen clearly as the train started falling. I was at the very front of the train. The train plunges nose first onto the cement floor. I feel weightless. Then my mind took over. I landed on a soft wall of the train (probably cuz I was sleeping on a soft bed). I looked around. Everyone seems fine with no major injuries. I was unscathed.

So when I woke up. I don't know why I never thought of this the first time I had this dream... but this time I thought. Things don't happen in real life. In real life, you don't walk away from falling 10~30m high. In real life you don't land on a soft material. You crash and burn. And then it hits me again. Should I that had been real, should I had died, what would become of me? I can't predict these things. It just happens. No one knows what the future would hold. Such things... scares me sometimes.

And yea... constant thinking about this subject and having nothing else to do during the break has made me remembered.

Losing track of time

I remember back in school, I would remember what I did based on what school year I am.
Example : I remember what I did when I was in Primary 6, what happened in Form 1/2/3/4/5
But since I came to the states. I can't seem to remember what I did and when an event happened. I remember what I did back in HELP, but not by year/semester. It's just 'back in HELP'.

I remember what I did in the states but I'm getting confused on whether it was within the year or last year. Just yesterday I thought movies such as The Curious case of Benjamin Button or Burn after Reading was released early this year.. but it was last year.

I'm losing track of time. Hence I have this blog. But a blog which isn't updated daily of what I'm doing everyday can only help so much...

That said, back to studying for Organic Chemistry 2 exam.

Snow snow snow

Dec 9 2009
It has snowed for the last 3 days non stop. Today, Wednesday, gusts reaching 45mph (about 60km/h) as well as snow about 11~13" thick (about 30cm+) ISU has decided to cancel classes for the day (a very very RARE occasion)

If you could see the situation outside right now, you wouldn't want to get outside. Respect to those news reporters who have to stand outside this horrible weather.

So... I'm stuck indoors.... I might go outside in the afternoon to make a snowman or two (There's ALOT of snow)

SCAMS SCAMS SCAMS

Again, somehow it is inevitable that some of my friends are still victims of online scams that uses their passwords to log on to their social website account/ messenger account to spread malicious links to those in their friend's list.

Annoyed as hell, I'm glad lifehacker has written up an article on how to prevent those as well as protecting from other forms of scams.

READ THE ARTICLE HERE!!

READ MY VERSION ON HOW TO FIX THIS

I find this quiz accurate and scary...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Merry Xmas (Early wish from my dogs)

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Man marries a video game character

http://videogames.yahoo.com/events/plugged-in/man-marries-a-videogame/1376577

I can't seem to accept that this is even happening... Everytime I read this, my head assploded and my mind just goes blank on how weird can those japanese go...

This time of life (Reminiscing again)

Was surfing the web just a while ago and found a link that shows "TOP 20 Martial Arts movie scene". So I was watching some of the clips and most of em were chinese martial arts movie made in the 80s and 90's starring Jackie Chan/Bruce Lee/Jet Li. Then it hit me, movies nowadays are just filled with explosions and gun fights that in my opinion lack choreography (the truck flipping scene in the Dark Knight was an exception).

Action movies has deteriorated to lackluster productions that only involves your typical explosions (Transformers 2 is a notable example) and they claim that the movie is 'action packed'.

I've never appreciated Jackie Chan's stunts during his prime as I have now. No one in this time and age will probably put their body on the line as much as these stunt men. Gotta respect them.

On movies/TV, if you ask me which movies remind me of my childhood, I would say Karate Kid, Jackie Chan movies, Jet Li movies and Mr Bean.

Sad thing is, Pat Morita passed away, Mr Bean aka Rowan Atkinson has somewhat retired, Jet Li says he's not making anymore martial arts movie and Jackie Chan seems like he's way too old to do anymore of his 90's stunts.

What about current 2000 movies? I can't really think of anything memorable other than the Matrix and Batman (ones directed by Christopher Nolan).

The same thing can be said about music. I really can't think of a memorable 2000 song which maybe 10 years from now I would say "That reminded me of my youth".

2010 is just a month away. I felt like the first 10 years of the 21st century has been disappointing. Is it because of all the video games? Have I been stuck indoors for way too long? Well.... 10 years from now I'm sure I'll definitely remember the good memories I have probably forgotten over these 10 years.

Enough reminiscing. Time to get back to finishing up my homework before the Merseyside Derby between Liverpool and Everton at 7.30am.

(Time written : 6am Sunday Morning)

What girls can learn from Twilight

1. If a boy is aloof, stand-offish, ignores you or is just plain rude, it is because he is secretly in love with you — and you are the point of his existence.
2. Secrets are good — especially life-threatening ones.
3. It’s OK for a potential romantic interest to be dimwitted, violent and vengeful — as long as he has great abs.
4. If a boy tells you to stay away from him because he is dangerous and may even kill you, he must be the love of your life. You should stay with him since he will keep you safe forever.
5. If a boy leaves you, especially suddenly (while telling you he will never see you again), it is because he loves you so much he will suffer just to keep you safe.
6. When a boy leaves you, going into shock, losing all your friends and enduring night terrors are completely acceptable occurrences — as long as you keep your grades up.
7. It is extremely romantic to put yourself in dangerous situations in order to see your ex-boyfriend again. It’s even more romantic to remember the sound of his voice when he yelled at you.
8. Boys who leave you always come back.
9. Because they come back, you should hold out, waiting for them for months, even when completely acceptable and less-abusive alternative males present themselves.
10. Even though you have no intention of dating an alternative male who expresses interest in you, it is fine to string the young man along for months. Also, you should use him to fix things for you. Maybe he’ll even buy you something.
11. You should use said male to fix things because girls are incapable of anything mechanical or technical.
12. Lying to your parents is fine. Lying to your parents while you run away to save your suicidal boyfriend is an extremely good idea that shows your strength and maturity. Also, it is what you must do.
13. Car theft in the service of love is acceptable.
14. If the boy you are in love with causes you (even indirectly) to be so badly beaten you end up in the hospital, you should tell the doctors and your family that you “fell down the steps” because you are such a silly, clumsy girl. That false explanation always works well for abused women.
15. Men can be changed for the better if you sacrifice everything you are and devote yourself to their need for change.
16. Young women should make no effort to improve their social skills or emotional state. Instead, they should seek out potential mates that share their morose deficiencies and emotional illnesses.
17. Girls shouldn’t always read a book series just because everyone else has.
18. When writing a book series, it’s acceptable to lift seminal source material and bastardize it with tired, overwrought teenage angst.
19. When making or watching a major feature film, you should gleefully embrace the 20 minutes of plot it provides in between extended segments of vacant-eyed silence and self-indulgent, moaning banter.
20. Vampires — once among the great villains of literature and motion pictures — are no longer scary. In fact, they’re every bit as whiny, self-absorbed and impotent as any human being.

Source : Wired.com

White or Brown skin?

Asians pay $$$ to have whiter skin, Americans pay $$$ to have darker skin.

Source : GlobalPost.com

Happy Birthday to me!

Thank you me

What I did at the end of last summer~

Why girls should marry engineers

Got this off a friend's blog (Occhua)

Let me tell you why girls should
eventually marry an engineer over a
Law, Management, Arts or Medical School
Graduate. He has three distinct
advantages over the rest of the
graduates.

Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
=====================================

An engineer boyfriend can provide you
with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years
old, an engineer probably has a
respectable, stable job that gives
him a high income to own a car,
invest, have a comfortable life, and
get married and buy a house too.
Law graduates are still working as a
lowly apprentice in law firm. Most
management graduates have just failed
on their first business plan. The arts
graduate is still looking for a job.
And the medical school graduate is
still living in a hospital.

Advantage 2: Unmatchable
industriousness
=====================================
An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an
unimaginable amount of his time and
effort to understand you. Engineers
strain really really hard to
understand their work. You can believe
that they will try really really
hard to understand women too, just
like how they understand their work,
once they believe that you are the
one. So even if they don’t understand
you initially, they will keep on
trying. Even if they still do not
understand, they will figure out the
correct method to keep you happy
(e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week’s
worth of happiness.) And once they
find out the secret formula, they will
just keep on repeating it so that
the desired results appear. Unlike the
Lawyer who will argue with you.
The Management graduate who will try
to control your spending, The Arts
graduate who will ‘change major’.
And the medical school graduate who
will operate on you. And you know
what, it’s really so easy to make
engineer s believe that You are
the ‘one’. Say that you like one of
their project and they will be hooked
to you forever.

Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend
will never betray your trust.
=====================================
Let me first tell you what is wrong
with the rest of the others – The
lawyers will lie about everything.
Management graduates will cheat your
money. The arts graduate will flirt,
and you probably just look like another
cadaver to the medical school graduate.
Your engineer boyfriend is either too
busy to have an affair, and even
if he does, he is too dumb to lie to
you about that. Hence, an engineer
is the most secure boyfriend that you
will ever find – rich enough, will
keep on trying to understand and
please you, has no time for affairs,
and too dumb to lie to you. plus they
r cooler than the others So girls, why
procrastinate? Get an engineer for
your boyfriend xP

5 lives gone...

Last week I've used up the last two of my five lives here in IAState.

This is a sign...

Windows 7 difficulties

It's lagging. I probably shouldn't have installed the 64bit Edition on this 3 year old laptop.

Gotta find time to revert back to the 32bit version

Happy Halloween 2009

I see alot of identical dead celebrities...

Happy Halloween 2009

You tell me

You tell me, stay positive, but everyone around me is making me feel negative.

You tell me, work hard, but almost all the time I don't get results I want.

You tell me, it's okay as long as you work hard, but even hard work won't get me where I want.

You tell me, don't worry everything's gonna be okay, how often is this true?

You tell me, there are people worst off than you yet they never complain.

I have no comeback to that.

What happens when things don't go according to plan?

What happens?

What would you do?

Regret

Think of other options

Choose the best option

Get on with life

Strive to achieve more in life

Or the emo approach,

Regret

Think of only one option

Choose the worst option

Ignore life and future altogether

Which category do you fall under?

Ahh peers

When results are unfavorable, there is no one to blame but myself.

I could've done this and done that. I had done this and done that yet I couldn't obtain it.

They say that hard work pays off. What if it doesn't? What left is there for me to believe?

I'm not getting any younger any day, I can only get better... so it seems. It's getting worst.

They say everyone has a purpose in life. What's mine? As someone else's topic of insults?

You know what pisses me off the most right now? "Friends" who make fun of me. Yea I get it, sometimes we make fun of each other but to INFLUENCE OTHERS?!

A friend of yours might come up to me and started spewing the same shit you usually say. Think of it in my position when some fella I hardly knew says such shit at my face.

I'm thinking "I'm not close to you, I HARDLY know you, who the fuck do you think you are to insult me in my face and expect me to let you get away with it like nothing's happened?!"

Stressful

Too many things going on in your head can affect your performance.

Too many worries going on in your head can affect your performance.

Too many problems to worry about can affect your performance.

That said, I'm stressed, having multiple worries, thinking too much about problems and I'm currently studying for 2 exams in less than 12 hours.

RIP Geocities

Back then around 1998,

you gave me plugins/add ons for Petz

you gave me insight on how to hack my digimon

gave me Dragonball/ anime fansites

from your service I made my first website (which I have forgotten how it looks like but it's somewhat similar to every other geocities website back then)

you thought me how to work with HTML and javascript.

11 years later, you've closed down. Thanks for the memories.

"Bye GeoCities! I remember staying up till late nights (and getting scolded of course) just to learn HTML and Javascript so I can create my own webpage and look cool when I share them on IRC and ICQ, putting in “Guestbooks” so readers could write down their feedbacks…those were the good old days. The time for Yahoo to close GeoCities is up, everything that were once there will vanish like dust, well almost; some of the pages might be preserved. It’s an obsolete tool and you probably don’t care about your page anymore, but it’s always worth the effort to save a copy of it before GeoCities takes it down forever…"

"Today's the day: Yahoo has officially killed the once-ubiquitous free hosting service, taking down thousands of the ugliest and least-updated pages on the web. It's really the end of an era. A moment of silence, please."

Read more : Gizmodo
Lowyat.net

7 retro things we'll miss about Geocities

Contradiction

"My religion promotes peace, my religion is against violence and war"

"We are a peaceful country."

"I promise this/that"

"I'm open-minded"

To those that said that or something similar... don't you see the contradiction? Or are you guys too ignorant to realize it?

Public Enemies?

As a minority, you walk amongst the majorities who are mostly racist. How do you feel?

As a majority who walk amongst the minorities, who condemns your racist ways in turn be racist towards you, how would you feel?

As an individual walking amongst other individuals who doesn't care of your background and treats you equally, how would you feel? I'd say definitely much better.

Sickness, Daughtry and Organic Chemistry Exam

Thursday night,

feeling sick (with sore throat) . Could be H1N1 but I seem to be recovering after drinking the miracle drink (beer) during Daughtry's concert.

Though... kinda lost my voice abit and my sense of hearing (just like the Nickelback concert where my ears have gone slightly deaf and a constant high pitch noise can be heard).

That said, it's 6.30am and there's 4 and a half hours left to study for the 3rd organic chemistry exam.

Influences? Power?

1 in 1000 people looks to the right, the other 99 people won’t care.
10 in 1000 people grouped together looks to their right, the other 990 might follow and you’ll get the domino effect.
But all it takes is to kill 1 out of 1000 to show that you have power over the other 999.

It all depends on the situation.

Burning the Midnight Oil all the way til the next day

10.30~12am :Study for Ochem Quiz Chap 20 and 21

12~12.30am : Break

12.30 til 2am : Try to finish up che358 homework

2am til 10am: Study for Che421

11am : Ochem quiz 4

12pm sharp : Che421 Exam 1

1pm : Hand in and attend che358

2pm : Eat lunch

3pm : Nap

6pm : Basketball

Ahhh gotta love college

Life and time you can't get back.

My grand-aunt passed away on 09/09/09...

I lived with her in Taiping when I was 2 to 4 years old or so. She loved me and cared for me.

She was rather active in her early years but as time passes on, she aged and started having Alzheimer's. She's getting rather forgetful last I saw her. Her frail old body trying to keep up with her daily life. It's kinda sad how I couldn't do much. Not even able to pay my final respects at her funeral.

I'm missing a lot back in Malaysia. But I have to choose to forgo things. Choices I'm not so sure if it outweighs the other. I'll leave that for another blog post in the future. For now, RIP.

Memorial for the Manga Artists of My Childhood

RIP

My Corruption

Just a little something I found reading forums...

Asian countries with the HIGHEST CORRUPTION PERCEPTION INDEX (CPI) SCORE year 2009!
1) Indonesia .. corruption score : 8.32
2) Thailand .. corruption score : 7.63
3) Cambodia .. corruption score : 7.25
4) India .. corruption score : 7.21
5) Vietnam .. corruption score : 7.11
6) Phillipine .. corruption score : 7.00
7) MALAYSIA .. corruption score : 6.70

while corruption score for Singapore is almost 0!!.. this is one big reason why Malaysia so hard to a be developed country

source..
http://www.transparency.org <-- official TRANSPARENCY INTERNATIONAL website
http://www.weforum.org <-- OFFICIAL WORLD ECONOMIC FORUM website
http://specials.rediff.com/money/2009/apr/...rupt-nation.htm

SN1,SN2, E1, E2???

I never liked remembering stuff. This is why I'm forgetful.
I'd rather understand how stuff works. But I still need to refer back to the books.
So what happens when you get both of these in one subject? Organic Chemistry.

I'm too used to my other Che exams where it's all open book and open notes. Gone are the high school days where I have to remember word by word of everything in the textbook for about 5 classes. I.am.a.wizard.you.shall.not.pass. My brain's totally messed up.

A sponge?

You may or may not mean whatever you said, but I'll still accept it like it comes from the bottom of your heart.
It's one of my weakness and will undoubtedly lead to my downfall one day.
Then again, I might forget about it and pretend it didn't happen.

I am who I am

I am who I am because of everyone.

That random dude that plays basketball outside Beyer Hall.
The bus driver that drives me to campus and back.
That cute shop clerk that asked me how's my day.
The beggars around that begs for direction.
My professor who makes me stay up all night to finish homeworks or study for exams.
My friends who lowers my self esteem.
People on TV who I despise.
Conflicting opinions with my group members.
Inventors of the past that created everything I'm using today.
The unknown person that made my clothes.
And my family who supports me for being me.

There is no rewind button in life.

Have you ever done something stupid and regretted it only hoping to go back in time to avoid it?
You wonder, "Is this really happening? GO BACK! GO BACK!".
Nothing happens.
What's left on your hands are the shattered pieces which can't be put back together.
Time slows down.
You figure out ways to repair and fix the situation. It is only temporary. The damage is irreversible.
Then reality hits you. Nothing can be done. You might decide to put the blame on someone else. You might try to stand your ground. In the end, you'd still have to clean up your mess.

I've done many mistakes.
I feel guilty for most of my mistakes.
It all feels like the first time.

Semi Transparency

"What's so unusual about seeing semi-transparent people ? Even plastic bags given out at supermarkets are semi-transparent. Politicians are also semi-transparent nowadays."

Song of the Month : September 2009

The inconsistent monthly "song of the month"....



Was surfing youtube searching for High and Mighty Color's new single "XYZ" and found this in the 'related videos' tab

WE'RE FUCKING OUTNUMBERED!!!!!

Raccoons begging for ice cream

Miracles?

"What I hate is when people get treated for a disease and live and are ok and then say "oh it was a miracle"

Yeah, way to snub the doctors who applied their skill and medicine to save your misdirectedly-grateful ass"

— by Turambar (taken off Digg.com)

Second thoughts...

I thought I could do it. I think I could do it. Looking at the textbook again and what to expect from this class... It's probably a better decision to drop the class.

I'm so disappointed in myself....

It's almost time to face it

I'll be getting back that blank sheet of quiz paper I turned in.
Urgh. Such a horrible feeling. Feel like avoiding it and just skip class/drop it. But if I do that, I'll just be running away from my problems.

Time to take responsibility

Things I hate academically when being a student

There's a few things I hate most as a student

1) Not being able to complete a homework because I don't know how to do it.
2) Not being able to complete some of the questions of a quiz/exam.
3) Studying hard for an exam, being very confident and when the results are out, realized you did really badly.
4) Studying really hard, being very confident but during the exam/quiz, realized you can't answer the question.
5) Knowing you're just a few points away from a higher grade.

The thing I hate the most,

6) Sitting for an exam/quiz you didn't really study hard because you got over confident and sat there unable to do even ONE question nor write a single thing. You spend most of the time staring at the paper clueless. Looking around you see everyone else answering their paper while all you can do is regret, feel stupid and wonder what the fuck are you gonna do when you hand in a blank sheet. Wonder how your professor will react when she/he sees the blank answer sheet with your name on it.


GARGHHHHH!!!!!!
Study hard. Study hard before exams/quizzes. At least you know you tried.

That's 50 points off my 450 total score for this class math 385. Better not fuck up the other quiz and 3 exams.

Note : The Chem332 exam went well. I managed to answer every question for the first time in my organic chemistry history. Let's hope the results are good.

Hitler agrees, Apple should've added the camera and FM tuner to the ipod Touch.

Cyclones lost 35-3

We were leading 3-0...
and then everything just went downhill.

2007, We won
2008, we lost
2009, Horrible defeat

Monday's Organic Chemistry exam won't go so well...

New iPod Touch 3G

The new iPod touch 3G came out yesterday. To many, it was a disappointment. No OLED screen, no camera, no FM radio. I think I know why

09/09/09

Just thought that I should post for this year's 09-09-09,

Post

The limit has been broken.

There is a limit to how much I can take. There is a limit to my temper. Unfortunately, I have reached that limit. Avoid me at all costs for the next few days. Avoid all the FUCKING OVERUSED "TEW" JOKES. 22+ FUCKING YEARS YOU THINK I WON'T SNAP? WELL I HAVE. THE PAST 3 WEEKS WAS EQUIVALENT TO A LIFETIME WORTH OF IT.
I'm currently in an unstable state. Who knows what I might do. Just stay away from me and let me regain my composure.

Merdeka 2009

Let's round up the news for these few days...

"A neighborhood with 95% Muslims started protesting on the construction of a Hindu temple near/in their area. Threatens that blood will be spilled if the government doesn't do anything about it." Very peaceful religion indeed.
Quote "There's no such thing as a bad religion. Only bad followers"
I think the current Home Minister only gave 'a stern warning' where else when other religions protest, cops and riot police will start raining down the tear gasses.

In other news, Indons are throwing rotten eggs at the Malaysian embassy because our National Anthem sounds alot like their song "Terang Bulan" (It also sounds alot like a song called Mamula Moon). You don't see the creators of Mamula Moon going nuts about how Indonesia/Malaysia stole their song.




Thank you Indonesia for throwing eggs at us when we helped you with your forest fires and tsunamis as well as all your illegal immigrant workers. We could've just ignored your forest fires but your forest fires are giving us the yearly jerebu. Or could this be part of a conspiracy? Either ways, "Thank you for making KL like London City"



Happy Merdeka 2009 (A year of countless riots and conspiracies)

7-8-9

It's the 7th of August 2009 just thought I should post something....
Later at 12:34:56, we'll have 123456789

Live for the moment

Yasmin Ahmad RIP

Passed away on the 25th of July due to a stroke.
Who is Yasmin Ahmad?
I'm sure many of you Malaysians have seen her works.
She directed the movie Sepet as well as the Petronas Commercials during the festive seasons.

Razer DeathAdder

Just got myself a Razer DeathAdder gaming mouse thus begins my very short review :

Pros :
-Precise and smooth
-Side buttons feel very responsive
-It lights up!

Cons:
-The one I received is defected #$!%#$%!@# gotta return it and hopefully they'll approve it's defected and send me a new one. (Side mouse buttons are auto pressing even though I'm not making any contact with it)
-Takes some time getting used to the weird design

Halloween this year

Here's a very early preview on my costume for Halloween 2009

R.I.P. Michael Jackson

This day, Michael Jackson has passed away due to a cardiac arrest.

R.I.P.

You shouldn't run with scissors as you shouldn't step on broken glass

I broke my glasses while adjusting it.
It broke right in the middle and I have to get new ones.
It costs $317 to get a new pair.
Do the math.
End of story
@#$@!#$!@$!@#$!@#$%!@#$%!^%

The irony of anti-aging products....

Oh the irony....

22-year-old Oxford University graduate died after being injected with an experimental anti-ageing drug by her sister.

Kids are so innocent... people in costumes are not

Statue of Epicness

Japan's at it again competing with the United States.
The US has the statue of Liberty.... Japan build something better, 'The statue of Awesomeness"



That's right.... a FULL SIZE 59foot gundam 'statue' standing in Tokyo!!

More pics here

Summer classes

During spring I never thought summer classes will be this taxing.
7 hours a day for four days a week and I'm not getting paid for this. I'm paying for this.

So what's this 7 hours a day class? Che325 or chemical engineering lab.
Well I was excited at first cuz this is my first REAL lab class. Things didn't go so well....

Since it's summer, every week I'll have to work on an experiment and every week I'll have to hand in either a lab report or give a presentation on it.

LAB-REPORTS-ARE-FUCKING-TEDIOUS
Tedious and time consuming as it is, I'm not supposed to share any info with my lab partner besides the data we collected during the experiment process.
Again not helping are the very very strict grader who even points out that I'm missing a FULLSTOP, italic fonts and weird indentations.

It's stressful....
I'm so glad that's over..... now next week... it's english 314.... 1 hour every day of the weekday

Updates....

Yea so I've been rather busy with lab reports for the past 4 weeks....
a lil preview and a reminder to myself on what to blog on the next time I'm free

-Weird dreams about :
HarryPotter + ISU
Captain Planet??
Dota+ Battle Realms where I got mixed up between Sniper and Musketeer

-Apple WWDC 2009 conference


Back to writing my lab report.....


PS : Lab Report due Thurs
Design Project Due Thurs
Design Project Oral Presentation on Thurs

Product Placement on TV

An anime recently aired known as 'K-ON' has sparked the sales of a headphone model causing it to be sold out for the FIRST TIME.

The headphones which cost about $260 was bought by fans due to a character from the anime wearing it. This shows how effective product placing can boost sales of a product... as well as how extreme Japanese otakus are....


But damn... if I had the $$ I would've gotten headphones like those.

Source : Shrine

Summer 2009 (First half)

So summer has come, what to do?
Summer break? Mine only lasted for a week
Midwest games? Cancelled due to the swine flu outbreak
Work ? Couldn't land one
Classes? 7 hours a day, 4 days a week until mid June
Anything else? Basketball almost every other day

Spring exams

So the dreaded final exam week is upon most of the students in ISU. 4 full months of assignments, quizzes and exams are put to the test on this final exam paper.
Most of us studying all night trying to cram every bit of information we can think of.
Health ignored, caffeine consumed, meals skipped, 5-hour energy drinks being sold out at convenience stores...

and the results?

ChE382 : I think I did okay
Che357 : Horrible.... good thing homeworks and previous exams made up for my disaster
BBMB : Hope the grade is on a curve.....
Stat305 : Taking it in about 6hours....

Dear public servant...

A reminder (for Spring 09 Finals)

BBMB Exam 5 -Anytime from May1st to May 7th
BBMB Finals - Anytime from May 1st to May 7th
Chem357 Finals - May 5th
Chem 382 Finals - May 5th
Stats 305 Finals - May 7th

Currently studyin for BBMB so I can finish this by Wednesday

Swine flu pandemic

It seems that these outbreaks are starting to be common recently.
SARS, JE, Bird Flu and now Swine Flu. What's with this sudden increase? Could we humans have been changing the environment too much thus nurtured the mutation of the flu virus to this extent?
Or is this the result of a bioweapon that leaked out?

Something I've gotta try one day

GradNight 2009 (Casino Night)

Assassination of the King (LanYeng)

Sniping target

My sidekick. "ShortStickSky"

More photos posted in facebook.

Congrats to the graduates!!

PS : It was a fun night

Since when was I part of MYM??

The name is definitely mine, the clan/ group mates are definitely people I know.....
Yet I don't recall ever joining them @@

http://www.mymym.com/en/profile/kyosuke86.html
http://www.mymym.com/da/team/1390.html

Team PolarFreaquency??? Really don't remember

But, playing with them back in the Blueserver days.. good times~

The penguins have arrived!

Remember I mentioned of killer robotic penguins? Well, they've been made

FEAR THE WRATH OF THE PENGUINS!!!

Efforts + Hardwork = ??

Throughout these times in the states, I've worked hard to boost my grades. 99% of the semester revolves around homeworks, projects, quizzes and exams. Week after week spending long hours of the night completing homeworks and studying is all put to vain over the dreaded FINALS.

Fuck it up and 3 months worth of effort is ruined. No, you don't start over from where you've failed, you start from the very beginning. The harsh nature of this system.....

From achieving an A-..... because I messed up one exam... my grade has been reduced to B-
Hopefully I don't mess up the finals (which I'm prone to)

How not to be hated on facebook

1. Stop taking quizzes. Nobody cares what literary time period you are.
2. If you sync your Twitter account to Facebook so that you fill others' news feeds with a constant stream of mundane updates and references to people with little @ symbols before their names, be prepared for people to de-friend you. Maybe even in real life. (Read "25 More Things I Didn't Want to Learn About You On Facebook.")
3. Don't friend someone you don't actually know
4. If you must friend someone you don't know, include a message explaining why you are doing so. For example, "Hi, I'm your cousin's roommate!" would suffice.
5. Actually, no. Why would your cousin's roommate want to be your friend? That's still weird.
6. Don't invite people to events if they don't live in your city. I'm glad you still live in our old college town, but guess what? I don't. Even if I did, I still wouldn't waste my Friday night listening to you play music at that vegan coffee shop I frequented when I was 19 because I couldn't get into bars.
7. I'm sorry your grandfather died of emphysema, but I will not join your "cause."
8. Make sure all your photos are rotated in the proper direction. How will people know how fun your Fourth of July barbecue was if every picture looks like you fell over?
9. If you create a group called "Lost my cell phone; need your numbers!," I will join, but I won't give you my number.
10. Cryptic status updates about your mental state — "Rachel is trying so hard," "Rachel wishes things were different," "Rachel is starting her life over" — don't make you sound intriguing, just lonely and pathetic.

How do we save the Earth?

Many have heard that the Earth is going on a downward spiral to oblivion thanks to us humans.
Extinction of animals, pollution, lack of food, water and habitats.

We're destroying the world yet most of us hardly gives a damn.
So to do my part, I have plans of becoming an evil master mind should I be reborn (or in this life). I shall create an army of evil robotic penguins that I'll hide deep within the North and South pole. These penguins shall be awaken the moment the surrounding temperatures reach a certain point thus activating them to hunt and kill humans unless the world government transfers a value of.... ONE HUNDRED TRILLION DOLLARS (numbers may vary depending on the year and current economy of the world at the time this threat is made public)


MUAR-HAHAHAHAHAHAHA-MUAR-HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-MUAR-HAHAHAHAHAHA

All I need now is a mini-me

Susan Boyle vs the world

Who is Susan Boyle?
She's the recent contestant for 'Britain's Got Talent' who stunned everyone. (Go google her video up)

At first glance, you see her as an ugly countrywoman who seems like she has no talent. A 43 year old who IMO doesn't seem to speak well. The audience facial expression shows lack of enthusiasm and confidence of the upcoming performance.

On stage, when she starts her performance, everyone was given a slap to the face. Never judge a book by its cover.


Right.... that's the introduction to my real intention for this post.
PEOPLE ARE FUCKED UP.
Seriously, the media and everyone else has become biased of people that does not have the presentation skills even though they have the talent.
Ask yourself when Susan Boyle walked up towards the stage. Towards the crowd. You did not expect that old ugly country woman would have such talents.
We're too used to our Angelina Jolies and Brad Pitts. Hollywood and every other friggin reality audition shows have given us this impression that if you aren't decent looking, you'd probably suck.

Now that Susan Boyle has gotten the world's attention and have probably won 'Britain's Got Talent' by a longshot, the producers of the show will groom her up to their very best and make her more presentable. In a few months/ years, she won't look like what you remember her as today.

Last year's beijing olympics is a good example where this chinese girl who was supposed to sing the national anthem was replaced by another girl because she is more 'presentable'.

Well I say fuck the world. It's time for you to stop being biased and shunning those that lack presentation.

You ARRRR a pirate!

Just follow the link~ (CLICK ME)

PS : I'm makin taufoofa right now

Candle + Laptop

Well let this be a lesson to many of us.....
NEVER PUT A BIG CANDLE OVER A LAPTOP

Some almost lost memories (Scavenged from Oliver's blog)

Why I was sneezing during summer 08 in Malaysia

I wear long sleeve shirts in Malaysia (and with the same hairstyle)
I miss Pulau Kapas

I shouldn't have licked Renuka's laptop



Ahhhh good times~

Anime madness

So recently I've been watching anime like a maniac all over again =.=
Numerous new anime popping out this April as well as old ones that I had just found out.

So probably you won't see much blog posts (or lengthy ones) this month as compared to the last two months =.=

Kyo-kuuuuuuuuuuuuun

Sends shivers down my spine.....

RiP Snowball...

My German Shepard has passed away..... T_T

April 7th 2009
At the age of 15 T_T

Raccoon power!!!!

A RAGING raccoon has bitten off a pervert's penis as he tried to rape the animal.

Alexander Kirilov, 44, was on a drunken weekend with friends when he leapt on the terrified animal.

“When I saw the raccoon I thought I’d have some fun,” he told stunned casualty surgeons in Moscow.

Now Russian plastic surgeons are trying to restore his mangled manhood.

Anime List

To those who had followed my blog will know I had a long list of anime watched along the sidebar...
Now I'm revising that list in the form of 'myanimelist.net'

I'll be adding in entries day by day based on what I could remember (as well as going through the list)

I'm definitely gonna be shocked at the amount of anime I've watched since 2001 (after the Doraemon days)

Edit : Finished compiling the list after 2 hours.... Ughhhh

Result :
Around 200+ anime watched
About 4,000 episodes watched
About 80 days worth of my life spent watching anime (not to mention the number of times I rewatch em..)

Snowing in April

Well this is Ames to those who doesn't know...
The spring which was supposed to be here just took a u-turn...

It was unexpected. The night before it was raining quite heavily... the next morning, I woke up seeing white everywhere like it was December all over again.

I want Summer to come so badly now...

Hungry / Fat/ Skinny??

Recently my appetite has grown (yea... of all times when I was low on cash)but here's the thing.... I'm not gaining any weight.. Instead, I'm losing weight and hardly ever making any big visits to the toilet =.=

I'm goin back to my school/ early college days where I eat like my dog. Btw, my dog's appetite is like this; even after eating a bowl full of food, he can still manage to gobble up numerous snacks and food =.=

Only difference is, he gets fat hahahahahaha

I miss tako yaki

TAHHH KOHHHH YAHHH KEE?!

Najib became 6th PM of Malaysia...

....on April 1st 2009.
(This post has been removed because of profanities)

I'm broke... oh shit....

I'm gonna be left with about $100 til the 14th of April..... crap.... (This is no joke)

It's time to save up $$....

Mario + Obama

That Obama cameo is classic!

Song of the Month : March

Rock me~ rock me~ rock me sexy Jesusssssss

Internet of the past

I'm just gonna list out some keywords for now :
- (I forgot the website for my first webpage. It was a really simple one page)
-Homestead
-Geocities
-Angelfire

So those were the servers/hosts where I made my first few homepages/webpages/fansites back in 1998 or so...
I was friggin 12 years old back then.
Since then, my knowledge developed rapidly to the likes of simple flash animations, dreamweaver, shockwave, java and the likes.

Things slowed down when easier alternatives was created (Microsoft Frontpage and etc.) which was around 2004~2005
Now.... blogs are the way to go. Everything's practically coded and ready to be used.

Ahh the good (bad) old days

Saladin is a failure IMO

Well based on this....



Animation :
Seriously.... production began in the year 2000 (from what I've read and remember) and this is the quality of animation we get?
The still images look great.. but when the characters start to move... it's incomparable to Toy Story (1995).

Voice/Sound/Music :
Childish music but it's target audience is kids... so it's excused~
As usual they got the Doraemon voice casts to voice the series... I still think they're crap. Them voice actors lack character and should be fired 10 years ago (After Doraemon was over).
It just feels weird hearing these Arabs speak in a Malaysian slang.... come on... =.=

Well since reading it in newspapers, I had hopes on this to boost Malaysia's crappy animation quality... after watching less than 5 mins of this... I'm rather disappointed

War+3D animation+Animals = Cat Shit One

Yes, we've seen Happy Tree Friends.... but this is in 3D animation!!!



I can't wait til it comes out xD

To Do list (Spring break)

Before the spring break last week, I compiled a list of to dos during that one week period.
Here's the results....

X ] Bake a cake (Preferably Black Forest/ Chocolate banana)
[ X ] Nickelback Concert
[ ] Get wild in the concert!
[ X ] Make dessert crepes
[ X ] Eat the crepes
[ ] Clean Up room
[ ] Cycle around Ames
[ ] Rent Resident Evil 5 and complete it by the week
[ ] Ice skating
[ ] Sign up for next sem classes
[ X ] Meet up friends and have dinner/lunch with em
[ X ] Cook up some chinese dish
[ ] LEMON CHICKEN!!!
[ X ] Emo
[ X] Don't Emo
[ X ] Guitar Hero!
[ X ] Try to finish off Valkyria Chronicles
[ ] Watch a movie
[ I'VE FALLEN SICK!!! ] Don't fall sick
[ ] Get a haircut (from a friend that can cut or barber)
[ X ] Try something new ( Some tension rope game thingie..)
[ X ] Indulge in Strawberry dipped in chocolate/ topped with whipped cream
[ X ] Cook Tom Yam Bihun
[ X ] Make Sambal Prawns!
[ ] Run eight laps around Beyer Hall basketball courts/ Leid Rec
[ ] 50 sit ups a day everyday beginning 14th March til end of spring break (or later)
[ ] Go on a date with someone~ (not likely but I can wish~)
[ ] Make/Eat Tau Fu Fa!!!
[ ] Study BBMB
[ ] Watch one full series of anime


Well... time to finish off some of the list by this week =.=
-Haircut
-Study BBMB
-Clean Up room

Here's the plan... (sleepless night)

So apparently my body clock still hasn't readjusted back to class hours thus I'm still awake even at 6am and hardly gotten any sleep since 1am (I slept at around 10.30pm)....

Right now my plan is to last the rest of the day hopefully being able to stay awake.
Better start making some breakfast to give me energy to get through 4 hours of work.....

Then there's this 1 hour 30 min break in between my next class... hrmmm
Gotta go and grab my RAN number and drop a class. Don't know what my prof will think when she sees me with eyebags.. but I gotta drop it by this week or else it's an F at the end of the semester

It's time to move to New Zealand!

This is the reason why!

Let's hope their face is pleasing to look at

The Joy in despair....

It's always sunny in despair plains~

The things you love to do....

Everyone has something which he/she enjoys doing.
It keeps them calm, entertained and helps them relief stress.

I used to watch anime, dota, basketball, sleep, etc...

Now,
I'm hardly watching any anime.
Dota has become more of a chore because I don't enjoy every moment of it as I used to
Basketball only happens once a week
Sleep, if I could even get to sleep
Manga, reading manga online is different from having them in my hand reading it on my bed.
Games, doesn't really pique my interest as much as it used to before


Life's getting boring. I've been doing the same things for over a year.
Wearing the same clothes (I haven't bought anything new nor gotten any new apparels from friends)
I need to find something new. Make new friends. Try new things.
I'll say this. My current friends aren't as outgoing.
Yes, if you read this, you know what I mean. Try something new lah!

SIGH!

Feeling down.
Feeling worn out.
Feeling all alone.
Feeling dead.

Feelings taking control.
So I let out a big SIGH
and it temporarily goes away

Yuna Ito - Trust You

My current fav. song
OST from Gundam 00...
Yuna Ito - Trust You


Partial English translation :

I love you, I trust you
I want to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Please don't leave anymore

Happy Birthday Yee Gin (and Chuck Norris!)

Happy 21st Birthday Long Kor!!!

and..... Happy 69th birthday to Chuck Norris!



Phone book saved my life!

Scorpios

Like other Water signs, Scorpio is considered a negative, feminine sign, which in Astrology means it is rather introvert.

.....Dammit

I've fallen in love with my phone

I've fallen in love with my phone...
Reminds me of a sad sad past..... more on that next time.....

Insecurity and Anxiety

Damn....

Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless (whether in a rational or an irrational manner).

Anxiety is a psychological and physiological state characterized by cognitive, somatic, emotional, and behavioral components. These components combine to create an unpleasant feeling that is typically associated with uneasiness, fear, or worry.

I suggest you read the articles....

Tough Decisions

So here's what happened...

As I stare down at the Organic Chemistry textbook trying to memorize each reactions, reactivity ,etc... I realized nothing's going in.
Nothing's making any sense at all. I'm not getting any of this.
Reading through, writing down the reactions... still nothing goes into this thick skull of mine.

I'm gonna flunk tomorrow's test without a doubt. It's time to face reality. I fucked up. Big time.
So here's what I'm gonna do.

I'm gonna drop this class.
I'll still take tomorrow's exam. It's a good smack in the face for slacking around too much.

And since I'm gonna drop this... I better study for STAT305.
GARGGHHHHHH!!!

Study Progress 2

Ochem2 : 25%
Stat 305 : 20%
Che382 : 20%
Che357 : 90%

Gotta stay FOCUS!!!

Dont Shoplift

Study Progress

Ochem2 : 2% (Skimmed through what needs to be learnt)
Stat 305 : 20%
Che382 : 5%
Che357 : 50%

Not good...

PS : Che382 and Che357 are open book exams

Exams before Spring break 09

Next week,

Tuesday :
Organic Chemistry 2 (Chem332)
Statistics 305 (Stat 305)

Wednesday :
Chemical Reactor Engineering (Che382)
Heat and Mass Transfer (Che357)

Good luck to myself

Ignored and Forgotten

Don't you just FUCKING hate it?
It's as if you died
It's as if your existence is insignificant
It's as if you're that person walking past you in the mall
It's as if you're that person sitting beside you in the bus

You know he's there... but you just couldn't bother

Voices and Words

Recently I've noticed some change in myself....
Usually I wouldn't mind chit chatting on msn/ facebook. Seeing people reply me with words typed out.
I don't know what hit me in the head but now everytime I see these msn/facebook chitter chatter... I feel lonely. I somehow don't feel your presence. It's as if I'm talking to something dead.

I'd rather hear your voices. I want you to hear mine.
I want to see your faces. I want you to see mine.

When I say something funny, I know you acknoledge me with your smile and laughter.
When I say something bad, you'd show me frowns and fists of anger.
When you sing, I can hear the melody/rhythm.
When I scream like a girl, you'd make fun of my scream...

Emoticons? I don't use them (msn ones). I think they're a nuisance and downright irritating because some people abuse them for almost every character in the alphabet making conversations a chore to read.


So, 'TALK' to me more.

An empty glass

So I was thinking of what I can base my current situation with.

Think of me as a glass, filled with some dirty water.
Horrible. Disgusting. Unappetizing.

Now some people tell me to let go of my past. Okay.
So if I pour away the dirty water, I'm left with nothing.
An empty glass.... waiting for the waiter/waitress to fill me up with joy and happiness.

....okay, just waiting for the waitress